Thursday 24 March 2016

Wounded at Battlefield

Here was I feeling slightly better after more than a week just lying on bed because I couldn't take my headache and didn't have any appetite to eat. And because I was recovering, I was very excited I could finally get some work done especially the pending stuffs.

So, the bunch of us at ET Ideas (www.ET-Ideas.com) planned to work at Mid Valley as most of us felt lazy working from home. I thought it was a good idea and I started scheduling who I can meet and the things I can get done the next day. I was also excited to find a shorter route to travel to Mid Valley using public transport.

Wonderful meetings that I have with some of the ET Ideas team
Excited about all this, I texted my mentor to let him know about my plans for the next day. And he replied with a thumbs up emoji.

I was about to go to bed after planning things and I played my goals recording before I slept as usual. And normally, I would be fine with that. But that day, I had a complain from my mind. My mind was annoyed listening to my goals. I replied it saying, 'I'm gonna play my goals anyway and we're gonna sleep listening to it'.

So I woke up the next day feeling dizzy but I told myself we have planned the day and we can get this done. I got ready and took the public transport to Mid Valley. When I travel using public transport, I would usually listen to my goals. But that day, thinking it would be a shorter distance, I didn't have my headset on. And... that was a mistake.

That made me more approachable, and I met a girl who told me almost her whole life story in the 20 minutes I was waiting for the train to arrive. I was very blur with the whole thing that I didn't know how to respond to the situation. Instead, I just stood there listening to her. The most I could think of at that time was to invite her for the discussion I host - ET Youth (www.facebook.com/ETYouth) and slowly, I slipped away from her.

The train arrived and a few minutes later, I was at Mid Valley! I'm not used to working at Mid Valley, so the moment I step foot into the mall, I became super blur. I was even wondering, why did I choose this mall to work at. I couldn't think of a place to work (though Mid Valley is filled with tons of restaurants) and I sat at a waiting area for almost an hour, thinking what to do and where I should go next. Here's the problem, I couldn't think.

Finally, I decided to have some food. It would help to reduce my dizziness and hopefully when my physical body feels better, I can think better. That's when I remembered I was supposed to meet a friend of mine as we needed to discuss some stuffs. She sat in front of me sharing her experience on how her senses have manipulated her and I listened. I was supposed to share some of my experiences too so that she don't have to go through similar mistakes as me, but all I could do at that point of time was... listen.

That's when my mentor texted about how I was doing. And I texted him back about my dizziness and being blur and the things that happened throughout the day. And all I wanted to do was to go home. But I couldn't because I had another meeting to attend later in the evening. He replied asking me to 'Breathe' (a popular term among the ET Ideas Associates) and also mentioned that I should have informed him about this when it happened. I said okay.

Working together on our goals makes it so much fun!
Then my friend and I went looking for a place to work at Mid Valley and because I was dizzy and didn't feel like walking a lot, we settled for a super quiet place where we were the only customers. I turned on my laptop to do my work. It was less than half an hour when my headache got worse and I told my friend I was going to take a nap. An hour later, my friend woke me up. It was time for my next meeting but truthfully, I just wanted to run back home and sleep.

But the meeting was already planned and I just needed to get through it a little while more. Thanks to the considerate meeting partner, we had a quick discussion, delegated our tasks and ended the meeting. 

After the meeting, I met up with my mentor to understand why my plans were derailed and most of my tasks for the day was not completed. He laughed at me first before further explaining. He said I was just recovering and getting better. I should have taken things in a slower pace and build back the momentum slowly. But instead, I rushed into things and forced my mind to do things my mind and body is yet to handle. 

He also said that I chose to take a new route to a new place to do my work instead of the normal locations I'm used to. That jammed my mind and my subconscious had to scan and scan and scan to familiarize with the new environment. And that made me even more tired and dizzy, making it hard for me to focus on my work. I also had some distraction from the lady I met at the train station, just because my physical body was not well, making my thinking ability, wounded. I arranged a few meetings in a day, thinking I can handle it, when my body and mind is not strong enough to handle it yet.

Awesome conversations that I have with my mentor, Elango Thiyagu (www.elangothiyagu.com)
Of all these, I went into a battlefield that I was unfamiliar with wounded. Wounded meaning, my six sense - thinking ability, was not strong to make proper decisions, be firm, to respond, use SIEP, and mainly to keep my other 5 senses in control. 

It was a different experience for me as previously, I did not take my thinking ability that seriously. Until I find myself hard to think and saw myself losing control to my other senses and some of my subconscious tricks. 

So, appreciate and sharpen your six sense - thinking ability. Because you have no idea what an amazing tool you have inside you.